无常的人生

我又再次了体验到人生的无常。
人生充满了一大对的惊喜。
计划的再好也可能会因为一件事情的发生而无法进行。

我已经记不起最后一次见你是几时的时候了。
是3年前？2年前？
我们一直以来都不太close.
可是我知道你一直都很关心我们。
听到你跌倒的消息后我一直以为你很快会好起来。
怎么知道前几个星期接到你的消息后才知道原来那么严重。

前几天，你走了。

对不起。一直以来我什么都没做过。

人都会这样吧。
都会把一个人的存在当作是理所当然的事。

唉。。。

人生啊。。。

外婆。。。
请你走好。。。
You'll be missed by lots of people





Sadly, these are one of the only pics that I have of Grandma... =(

请大家好好珍惜身边的人。。。

Short update

Hey Peeps~

I know I know.. It's been a really long time since I last wrote in my blog.....
But I've been wayyyyyy too busy :p
It feels as if I haven't stopped since I came back to M'sia ^^"

So far, this is what I've done:
* Left Melbourne for Singapore on the 18th and stayed for two nights.
* Went back to Mersing on the 20th and stayed untill the 23rd.
* Left Mersing on the 23rd, arrived in KL around 5 p.m. Had just enought time to take a shower and have dinner before I had to go to KL Central to meet up with Shin and Co. and left for Langkawi at 9 [For more details bout my Langkawi trip, look at Jon's blog].
* Left Langkawi on the 25th. Stayed in KL until the 29th
* Left KL on the 29th for Mersing. Been very busy in Mersing because of my Sister's wedding. Never knew that a wedding is so stressful, tedious, and annoying ><
* Jon left Mersing on the 4th for KL.
* Between 6th to 10th was my family's trip around Malaysia. That was freaking tiring ^^"""""""
* Leaving Mersing tomorrow for HK tomorrow and coming back on the 20th. Will probably up to KL on the 23rd.

AIks... I'm hoping to have more time to sleep after my HK trip.
Will try to have a more detailed post bout my holiday soon. Please bear with me yea?

Take care peeps~

YaY ^^

YUSHHH~!!!!!

Exams are finally over!!!

No more waking up in the morning, thinking, the intergration of that formula equaled landa squared????

No more waking up in the morning, trying to remember what the six stages of model building is.

No more waking up in the morning, shouting "BAHHHHHH!!! I don't want to study!!!!"

I am free for the next 3 months~!! Yushhhhh~

This holiday will be my last summer holiday before I graduate so I will try my best to enjoy it ^^

I AM GOING BACK TO MALAYSIA ON SUNDAY!!!! Actually, I'm going to Singapore on Sunday.. Won't be in Malaysia till the 20th or something.. I'll be able to go shopping!! Yushh~ ^^v

Can't wait to see everyone back in Msia~

月亮不见了

看见的，看不见了.

夏风轻轻吹过，在瞬间消失无踪.

记住的，以往了。

只留下一地微微晃动的迷离树影...

看不见的，是不是就等于不存在？

也许只是被浓云遮住，也许刚巧风沙飞入眼帘，我看不见你，却依然感到温暖.

记住的，是不是永远不会消失？

我守护如泡沫般脆弱的梦境，快乐才刚开始，悲伤却早已潜伏而来...

看不见的，看见了.

夏风轻轻吹过，草丛树叶翻舞飞扬.

以往的，记住了.

乌云渐渐散去，一道柔和的月光洒落在窗前.

摘自几米的月亮不见了。

这本书我差不多3年前买了吧。

几米真的是很厉害。

他的句子全部都很有意思...

这几天都一直在想这几句...

网络经典字句

Yes... I'm bored and slacking... ;p

1. 我和超人的唯一区别是：我把内裤穿在里面了
2. 走别人的路，让别人无路可走
3. 听说女人如衣服，兄弟如手足，回想起来，我竟然七手八脚地裸奔了19年！
4. 宁愿相信世间有鬼，也不相信男人那张破嘴！
5. 水至清则无鱼，人至贱则无敌
6. 骑白马的不一定是王子，他可能是唐僧；带翅膀的也不一定是天使——妈妈说，那是鸟人。　　　　　　
7. 时间和乳沟一样，挤一挤还是有的
8. 一山不能容二虎，除非一公和一母
9. 春天，我把自己埋在村口的土地里，到了秋天就收获了好多的帅哥。然后我把村里的名字改成“帅哥村”，我也如愿以偿当上了村长
10. 有一天，我梦见自己的钱花光了，醒来一看，口袋真的空空……
11. 巧克力的麻烦是：你把它吃了，它就没了
12. 千万别等到人人都说你丑时才发现自己真的丑
13. 如果朋友可以出卖，每个值五块的话，我也能发笔小财了
14. 相亲最大的好处是：如果日后婚姻出问题，你可以把责任推给媒人
15. 人，生在床上，死在床上，欲生欲死，也在床上
16. 巫师，请转告公主，老子还在披荆斩棘的路上，还有雪山未翻、大河未过、巨龙未杀、美女未泡……叫她继续死睡吧！
17. 我的意中人是个绝色大美女，终有一天她会骑着喷火的恐龙来嫁给我。但是，故事的结局，我只看到了她的坐骑，却没看到它的主人
18. 树不要皮，必死无疑；人不要脸，天下无敌
19. 无所为而无所谓，无所谓而无所不为。(戴健伟)
20. 铁饭碗的真正含义不是在一个地方有饭吃，而是一辈子到哪儿都有饭吃
21. 上帝说:“要有光。”我说:“不批准！”于是我们便有了黑夜
22. 天哪！我的衣服又瘦了
23. 流氓不可怕，就怕流氓有文化
24. 水能载舟，亦能煮粥！
25. 开车无难事，只怕有新人！
26. 诚征小MM，共同来灌水；我灌长江头，君灌长江尾
27. 一个人并不孤单，想一个人时才孤单
28. 如果我能够看到我的背影，我想它一定很忧伤，因为我把快乐都留在了前面！
29. 你以为我会眼睁睁看着你去送死吗？我会闭上眼睛的
30. 以为我很颓废，今天我才知道，原来我早报废了
31. 我喝酒是想把痛苦溺死，但这该死的痛苦却学会了游泳
32. 我是你的风筝，线在你手上，可陪伴我的只有风
33. 按猪的审美观，我基本算得上是个美女
34. 不在课堂上沉睡，就在酒桌上埋醉
35. 坐拥大奶名号，享受二奶待遇
36. 我朋友在他女友手机里的名字是“他”，后来他们分手了，就变成了“它”……
37. 其实我是一个天才，只可惜天妒英才

it's too late

我最近很喜欢听得一首歌 - Apologize by One Republic
Timbaland remade这首歌不过我还是觉得他的原版比较好听。。

听了这首歌就会在想，错过了的东西是不是就不可以再挽回？
我听过很多故事都是这个样子。
甲方把乙方的存在想成了理所当然。
所以甲方认为不管自己做了什么乙方都会原谅他。
到最后甲方发现到自己的错误的时候已经太迟了。
"It's too late to apologize.."

有些乙方却很有耐心。
他们一直都在等。
等到甲方看到，感到乙方的重要性。
可是，有多少个人有那么多的耐心呢。。。
一定会有各极限吧。。

爱到极爱的时候是什么？
狠到极狠的时候呢？

我以前以为我自己很有耐心。
就算发生什么事情都会等待。
可是我到了我的极限后才发现原来人都是有自我保护的能力的。。。
当受了很多很多很多次伤过后才会发现到自己其实没有那么强。。。
为了必免再次受伤害，放弃是唯一的出路。

为什么人都是这个样子的呢？

After the third exam...

今天... 终于考了第3科！！
好像等了很久很久很久的感觉。。
虽然上一科考得不太好。。每天都在怕会被当。。。
不过，今天的心情是不错的。
考试之前都很紧张。
Lecturer讲会蛮简单。
However, from previous experience, lecturer's definition of 'easy' is always hard. ><

Shuo Mei's very stressed face before the exam...

Mr Kong's very stressed back

再看完考卷过后，我才知道，'TMD' 我那么辛苦背的那些东西都没出。
幸好还会做。。。不然真得可以去跳楼了。。

考完后就去city吃晚餐。
sighhhhhhh... 每个人都考完了。。只剩我。。要挨到13号 =(
可怜啊可怜。。。
那一群不太好的朋友都在串。
知道你们考完了很开心啦！！！ ;p

今晚的菜。。。太久没吃了。辣得要命

Cam whoring is ofc a must in these type of ocasions.....

The night can't end nicely without desserts~
It's been sooo freakin long since I last went to Freddos ><

And thus, the night ended quite satisfactory ^^

Now, I'm back to reality.

I have to continue studying tomorrow.

Blekk. ><

dancing

Due to fang's influence, I was quite hooked onto searching for videos from 'so you think you can dance' and found this very nice song - Dancing by Elisa

She's such a good singer!!

stupid exams ><

who the hell invented exams??????????????

ughhhhhhhhh.

it must be some type of evil plan someone made up. so that people like me suffer ><

i haven't been able to sleep well at all lately. there's no morning that i wake up thinking "hey, i feel good today".

everyday when i wake up i'll think "gahhhhhhhhhhh. need to study. and im tired... =("

i didn't really study today.. dammit. i don't see how i can fail this unit but.. my HD went down the drain... o wellz... that's what you get for slacking and making up excuses for not studying.

sigh.......

can't wait to go home!!!

blek

我不要读书了啦！！！
最近每天都读到太阳升起的时候才可以睡。
不是我想读到那么‘早’
是我没什么选择 (mr kong rrrr.. thanks to you laaa.. ;p)

太阳刚要升起的时候，天空是很漂亮的^^

这些是前天拍的。。



这些是今天早上拍的。。。





after taking a pictures i realised my camera can do some pretty cool stuff. (most cameras can probly do the same thing but thats not the point here...)





still need a lof a practice with my camera.... but ill get there some day.......

yess... this was quite a meanigless blog ;p
but im annoyed at my books and notes and formulas ><

good luck peeps~!!

><

grrrrrrr.

i'm getting annoyed.

i'm getting restless.

arghhhhhhhhhh.

exams are getting on my nerves dammit.

can it like happen tomorrow???

it annoys me to know that by the time i have my first exam most people would have already fihished THREE exams.

blek...

dammit stats. u always give me a lot of trouble but yet i do not know why i keep choosing you ;p

想太多

最近觉得很有感觉的一首歌
李玖哲的新歌 -----> 想太多
他的声音真的很好听~ ^^

Exam countdown~

The final year of my first semester has finally ended.
In about a week an a half's time I would be sittin for my exams. Daim. Where has all my time gone to??
However, I do feel less stressed this semester. Thanks to ABF, I do not think any finance units are that hard anymore ^^".
Aaron tells me I have a lot of time to study and if i don't get HDs I have to buy him and SM dinner.
Aiyierrrrrrr... He's the one making me even more stressed.
I really want to do well this semester... Let's pray hard....

It's time....
To turn my computer off, and start studying.

Good luck to everyone sitting for exams~

Fang rrrrrrrr. It feels so long since I last talked to you. Are you alive???? Hhehehee... Don't get too stressed out k?? Cya soon ^^

Heres some videos for you guys to look at if you're bored.













Before I go overboard of putting too many vids here.. I better stop ^^"

=)

与其后悔什么也没做
不如尝试后失败反而更好。

什么都不做
比做了失败还要失败。

我觉得这两句话说得很对。我们很多人想做一样事情的时候都会怕会失败。所以会在哪里想，该怎么做，成功的几率有多高，失败的话会怎样，之类的。想下想下，机会就可能走掉了。然后我们就在哪里想如果这个如果哪个。

想做的话就应该去做~
失败了就重新来过吧。

彩虹

今天下雨后看到的彩虹。
呵呵...

I don't like this time of the semester

This time of the semester is the part where i do not like the most.
It's the time when I worry over and over again about the finals.
It's the time when I have assignments due around the same time.
It's the time when I get so freakin eager to get everything over and done with.
It's the time when I ask myself over and over again "have I worked hard enough this semester?" The answer is usually no. Bahhhh...

I'm always very super duper stressed inside but try to tell myself everything would be ok.
Really. I do. But it doesn't really help.

I get kindda snappy at times.
I can't sleep well.
I get emotional.
Appetite goes down.

I hate this time of the semester.
I'm very looking forward to goin home and I can't wait for my exams to finish.
I really hope that I do no panick again this semester.... ><

愿望

如果有一天，有一个人走来跟你说，
我有能力给你一个愿望，什么愿望都可以。
你会许个什么样的愿望呢？
金钱？美貌？权力？智慧？
你会许个什么样的愿望呢？

如果许了任何一样事情，
你整个人生都会变得不一样吧。
可是你会不会受不起着整个不一样的人生呢？
会不会因为太不一样，
之后，
整个人就消失了呢？

知道知道。
又想太多了啦。^^"
如果你得到了一个愿望，你会想要什么呢？

空空的

[ 回家的时候拍的。可惜照片看不到我看到的东西]

春天，终于到了！！
天气越来越好了。
呵呵。
真的是去海边探索探索的好时候啊。

我最近也还挺悠闲的。
感觉不太好。。。
有点空虚。。。
看到每个人都那么忙我又没事做的那种感觉都不太好。
我是应该读书的。。。
又提不起劲。
blek

有时真的在想。。。
到底。。在做这些事情干嘛。
读书，做工，拍拖，etc.
这个世界那么大。
多我一个不多，少我一个不少。
好像是不管我多努力，都是没用那样。
到最后，还是会被遗忘。

每天反复的做同样的事情。
忙忙忙。
到最后，到底是为了什么忙？
怎样才算是活着？
会不会活到麻木掉呢？

我总觉得我一直找不到我想要的passion.
我觉得如果找到那种感觉的话，会比较完整。
可是，什么时候才会找到呢？

是我想太多了？
还是我们只盲目的过每一天？
是不去想比较容易所以就一直这样过？
我也不知道。。。
总觉得，我这一生，做得很多事情都是因为'it makes my life easier'的原因而去做。
唉

要怎么做，才算是一个完整的人生呢？
有时候，还是会觉得心里空空的。
很多人没有的东西，我都有啊。
可是，总觉得会空空的。
也不知道怎么了。。。
就是有点不完整的感觉。

也不能说我不开心。
可能，在等着一种感觉吧。
不是爱。不是友情。不是金钱。
就是一样能填补那空空的洞的一种感觉。
等我等到了。
再告诉你吧。

烦

最近不懂干嘛... 就有点心烦那样...
可是又不懂在烦什么.
照理来说,是不应该烦的.
是应该没有事情烦的...

我想,
我是想念家了.

我没有试过离开我家人那么久.
算下算下我都过来7 8个月了.
啊。。。。。说长不长说短不短啊。。。
不懂干嘛。
最近就一直很想回家。

一定是。。。每天走路走到很累了。
哈哈哈哈哈。
还有多两个月才能回家啊。。。。

>.< 可是。。我有点想回，又有点不想回。。。 很矛盾吧。 怕回了又有很多事会发生。 可能是我想太多了吧。。。 Bahhhhhhh..... 我担心太多东西了。。。 好好用功读书吧。。。;p

Photo Shoot? O.o

Few days ago, Sam (my 'kai sai lou') asked me if I could pose for him for his portfolio. My first reaction was... "Huh? Are you sure? I'll probably screw it up" He assured me he was sure.. So.. I said ok. It was supposed to be me drinking milk infront of a milkbar. How bad can it be right....

A few days later, Sam called again and asked me if I'm free on Weds and I said yup. After class, he and TJ came over to uni to pick me up and we headed back to his place. The milkbar scene was canceled and it will now be in a tennis court.

The tennis court was located close to his place and we had to walk on the freeway and through this bush walk thing to get there.

It was kindda scary to be walking here cuz da cars pass by realli fast...

Over looking some freeway...

Sam... =P

I was surprised to see this...

That cam is soo cool...

Sam & me after the shoot

TJ & me

After finishing at the tennis courts, Sam had to take me to the city because Elaine asked me to pose for her portfolio as well. But before that, Sam was editing the pictures he took of me and TJ. I am very amazed at what Photoshop can do to a picture. It can change the mood of the picture just by a few clicks. Daim.

The sunset was really pretty~

Melb city @ night

And that just about wraps up my day. It was interesting to pose for them. But I don't think I have the modelling potential (without taking into account the height issue... ;p). I don't have the whole package.

Oh yea, Sam said I'll have to take more pictures again next week because the lightings all wrong. Will have to find a new set. Will see how that one goes next week then~

The first day with my new toy

Two months ago, my sister told me that she was going to get me a new camera for my birthday. When I heard about it, I was freaking excited. I've been wanting a new camera for a long long time. My brother promised me that he was going to get me one about four years ago. So for the past four years, I've been getting my hopes up and getting dissapointed (It's actually not that dissapointing because I've been expecting it)... But it was different this year because... It's my sister who promised to get me a new camera!!! My sister has had a very good record of keeping promises. I knew I would definately get a new camera this time ^^v.

She gave me a budget of under 300USD and a few suggestions. I went and researched straight away. I looked at Pentax, Panasonic, Canon, Olympus.... etc. All those popular stuff. I couldn't decide. Jon helped looking as well. In the end, it was either a Panasonic or Canon. I decided to get a Canon since my sister sugested it and she got a new Canon DSL as well. CANON SD750 is my final choice ^^.

BUT, my sister said my camera won't arrive so soon. She said if I wanted it urgently she could send it over but it would be better if Danbee could bring it back for me when she comes back from the US to Melbourne. I was so excited about getting a new camera I didn't care how it got to me as long as it will get to me.

Anywayz, after two months of waiting, I finally got my camera last Sunday. I met up with Danbee and JP for lunch at Spicy Fish. I wasn't hungry at all that day so the food didn't taste that great. But it didn't matter because I was focusing on my new camera. Kekeke....

Opening the package

Danbee and me outside SpicyFish

After lunch, me and Jon decided to catch a movie and decided on The Bourne Ultimatum. I always thought it was called The Bourne Ultimum until Danbee corrected me. Bahhhh. I should read things more carefully instead of only reading the first and last two letters of the word..... ^^"

Testing out how good my new camera is

It was a lovely day

Melbourne Central

The poster

The movie was good!! Jason Bourne is like the ultimate man. It was filled with lots of actions and stuff... I can't decide which one of the Bourne trilogy I liked the most though...

And that pretty much wrapped up the day. And a new toy was added to my collection (not that I have a lot of toys... >.>...). I won't be doing much of a review on my camera because I don't really know how to review it. Jon said he wants to do a review on my cam so watch out for that if you're interested. Overall I'm very satisfied with the camera, and loving it ^^v

Going home after a long day...

The Birth of my new blog

Now, I've been wanting to create a blog in blogspot for sometime but I never got around to it. Why start one all of the sudden? It's a bad reason... But.. It is mostly due to my new camera. ^^ Hehehe... With my old crappy camera, there wasn't much of a point takin pictures. With my new camera~ I'm practically taking pictures of whatever I can see :p

I've always had another blog with MSN Space but that one isn't too good because you can't really add pictures to your blogs. And with my crappy communication skills, I need pictures to potray what I want to say (hopefully...)...

Anyway, Happy Birthday to my Blog~!! ^^