真的好久好久没上来这里了...
差点就忘了我有一个这样的地方...
也已经好久没上网看朋友们的部落格了.
好像每个人也渐渐的为了生活把注意力转移到其他地方了.
最后一次写的文章竟然是今年一月.
那时候写的事情到现在还在困扰着我.
还以为会变得比较勇敢.
可是 我还是我. 好像还反而更加严重了...
很多时候也会脾气不好.
不想跟人接触交谈 也睡不好...
好像也会自己跟自己交谈吵架.
我真的不能再这样下去了...
一天一天的过.
总有一天会发现'已经太迟了'.
不行!
不能够.
一定要找出解决的方法.
不能再拖了...
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
1st post of 2010
Daimmmm... It's been so freaking long since I last updated here.
Kindda forgot about this place.... ^^"" Hahaha...
Haven't really had the motivation to write anything in here as well....
For those who doesn't know, I have been extended to stay in Pg for another three more weeks. Was supposed to go back next week but my last day in Pg will only be on the 12th now.... Was super disappointed when I first heard the news but I guess there are worse things than this....
It's been pretty much the same everyday lately. To the point where I'm starting to get restless.... Grrr... Been having all sorts of nightmares as well. People are telling me that I think too much and probably putting some sort of pressure on myself. Which is probably true. I can't seem to shut down my brain from thinking about all these things =(
We had a speech given to us yesterday (and today because I was in a diff department) by a senior manager. He reminded me of something that I've kindda forgotten about.
He asked us to dream.
Somewhere along the road of growing up, I forgot about the ability to dream.
To dream out of the box.
I've based a lot of the decisions that I've made these past few years on practicality. Choosing to do something because it's economical and logical. I gave up on all sorts of things because of that.
Now when I look back, it seems so silly.
I'm not exactly doing the things I wanted to do but doing the things that are the 'best' for me.
It's still not too late to dream and do what I want to do.
But like the normal average human being that I am, I'm scared of the change, failure that may follow by doing what I'm dreaming of.
My path will definitely be harder if I follow the dream.
Sighs... It'll be my call to make the decisions...
New year resolution;
Stop staying in my comfort zone???
Kindda forgot about this place.... ^^"" Hahaha...
Haven't really had the motivation to write anything in here as well....
For those who doesn't know, I have been extended to stay in Pg for another three more weeks. Was supposed to go back next week but my last day in Pg will only be on the 12th now.... Was super disappointed when I first heard the news but I guess there are worse things than this....
It's been pretty much the same everyday lately. To the point where I'm starting to get restless.... Grrr... Been having all sorts of nightmares as well. People are telling me that I think too much and probably putting some sort of pressure on myself. Which is probably true. I can't seem to shut down my brain from thinking about all these things =(
We had a speech given to us yesterday (and today because I was in a diff department) by a senior manager. He reminded me of something that I've kindda forgotten about.
He asked us to dream.
Somewhere along the road of growing up, I forgot about the ability to dream.
To dream out of the box.
I've based a lot of the decisions that I've made these past few years on practicality. Choosing to do something because it's economical and logical. I gave up on all sorts of things because of that.
Now when I look back, it seems so silly.
I'm not exactly doing the things I wanted to do but doing the things that are the 'best' for me.
It's still not too late to dream and do what I want to do.
But like the normal average human being that I am, I'm scared of the change, failure that may follow by doing what I'm dreaming of.
My path will definitely be harder if I follow the dream.
Sighs... It'll be my call to make the decisions...
New year resolution;
Stop staying in my comfort zone???
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