又再一次的生病了。
我到底是怎么了。。。
以前是几年才发一次烧。
今年却平均一个月烧一次。
搞到我的manager觉得我是那种随便乱那MC的人。。。=(
我也不想拿MC的啊。。。
回到家也没有事情做。
怪凄惨的 ><"
真想回到以前读书时，不想去上课就不去上。
不用看人家的脸色。
现在做什么都要想其他人会怎样看你。
长大的代价可真大。。。
慢慢地看见什么叫办公室风云。
什么叫看人家脸色做人。
什么叫低声下气。
接下来的人生就是会绕着这些东西走。
很多时候都会想
"is this really it?"
现在才真的学会珍惜那些宝贵的时间。
因为快乐的时间过得真的是特别快。
人生啊。。。
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
郁闷
好久没进来写东西了 ^^"
不是不想写。。。只是。。。
真的不知道要怎么表达心里的话。
被派来槟城也有两个月多一点了。
可是不知道为什么，就是觉得少了些什么。
是工作的问题，自己的问题。
总觉得。。。有什么不对劲的。
怎么现实总是离我想象的那样那么远？
很想很想不要想那样多。
真的很难。
我该怎样。。。
不是不想写。。。只是。。。
真的不知道要怎么表达心里的话。
被派来槟城也有两个月多一点了。
可是不知道为什么，就是觉得少了些什么。
是工作的问题，自己的问题。
总觉得。。。有什么不对劲的。
怎么现实总是离我想象的那样那么远？
很想很想不要想那样多。
真的很难。
我该怎样。。。
Monday, July 6, 2009
三人游
Awsome song...
有些话你选择不对他说
你说某种脆弱 我才感同身受
我永远都愿意当个听众 安慰你的痛
保护著你从始至终
就算你的爱 属於他了
就算你的手 他还牵著
就算你累了 我会在这
一人盯 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默的 静静的 或许很值得
我还在某处守候著
说不定这也是一种
幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
有些话我选择保持沉默
别把实话说破 隐藏我的寂寞
你的情绪依然把我牵动
躲在你心中 角落的心事我能懂
就算你的爱 属於他了
就算你的手 他还牵著
就算你累了 我会在这
一人盯 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默的 静静的 或许很值得
我还在某处守候著
说不定这也是一种
幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
不知道 不知道 不知道
为什麼 为什麼 我的爱
我的爱留不住你的离开
却总在 等待著你回来
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
五年前 vs 今天
现在的感觉就像当初第一次到KL的时候，一个人在hostel发呆的时候。
不同的是，那是五年前，在KL的hostel.
五年后，我在槟城的hotel.
虽然地点换了，感觉还是一样。
还是会觉得有点彷徨,害怕,不知道前面的路会是怎样.
可是人生不会因为这样而停下来。
我只能向前走。
不愿意向前走也只能继续走。
我想，我应该是很幸运吧。
很少人可以一直换地方住。
可是，有时会想，如果不需要再继续搬该多好？
唉。人就是犯贱的。
有的时候就不会珍惜。
没有的时候就会投诉说为什么会没有。
^^""
人生真的有太多意想不到的东西.
五年前觉得会发生的东西很多都没发生.
没想过会发生的东西竟然发生了.
虽然有些时候会伤心，不想再向前走。
可是，当一件开心的是发生的时候，全部之前不开心的事都会觉得其实不是很伤心。
因为，all things happen for a reason.
如果伤心的事没发生，开心的事可能就不会发生。
人生就是因此而有趣。
是吧？
五年前不知道前面的路会怎样，我微笑的面对。
I survived it.
五年后的现在，我还是不知道前面的路会是怎样，
我还是会继续微笑的面对，
因为我知道我一定能survive.
不同的是，那是五年前，在KL的hostel.
五年后，我在槟城的hotel.
虽然地点换了，感觉还是一样。
还是会觉得有点彷徨,害怕,不知道前面的路会是怎样.
可是人生不会因为这样而停下来。
我只能向前走。
不愿意向前走也只能继续走。
我想，我应该是很幸运吧。
很少人可以一直换地方住。
可是，有时会想，如果不需要再继续搬该多好？
唉。人就是犯贱的。
有的时候就不会珍惜。
没有的时候就会投诉说为什么会没有。
^^""
人生真的有太多意想不到的东西.
五年前觉得会发生的东西很多都没发生.
没想过会发生的东西竟然发生了.
虽然有些时候会伤心，不想再向前走。
可是，当一件开心的是发生的时候，全部之前不开心的事都会觉得其实不是很伤心。
因为，all things happen for a reason.
如果伤心的事没发生，开心的事可能就不会发生。
人生就是因此而有趣。
是吧？
五年前不知道前面的路会怎样，我微笑的面对。
I survived it.
五年后的现在，我还是不知道前面的路会是怎样，
我还是会继续微笑的面对，
因为我知道我一定能survive.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Ever since I started working I've been wondering where this is all going.
There are many days I wake up feeling lost.
Things don't make sense to me. The world, people, everything.
It's as if I was living in a dream back in those Uni days and I'm waking up to the reality.
There are so much more think about now.
The work that you do, the constant pressure put on you to perform, the responsibilities. Not just the work that you do.
The people around you as well. Family, friends, relationships, everyone around you.
There is never enough balance between all these different groups of people.
Everyone expects something out of you and when you can't exceed their expectations they get frustrated and annoyed at you. Things falls apart after that. You try to think of the best way to do things but somehow, someway, something goes wrong.
This is the reality huh. But is this really the way that life is suppose to be?
A lot of people tells me I'm thinking too much. Maybe I am... But I can't help it.
I guess this is why you need to have a goal. Without one you're just one lost soul...
I can't say I have found my goal. But I will find it somewhere, somehow.... Hopefully I'll get there before I lose my mind. ^^"
There are many days I wake up feeling lost.
Things don't make sense to me. The world, people, everything.
It's as if I was living in a dream back in those Uni days and I'm waking up to the reality.
There are so much more think about now.
The work that you do, the constant pressure put on you to perform, the responsibilities. Not just the work that you do.
The people around you as well. Family, friends, relationships, everyone around you.
There is never enough balance between all these different groups of people.
Everyone expects something out of you and when you can't exceed their expectations they get frustrated and annoyed at you. Things falls apart after that. You try to think of the best way to do things but somehow, someway, something goes wrong.
This is the reality huh. But is this really the way that life is suppose to be?
A lot of people tells me I'm thinking too much. Maybe I am... But I can't help it.
I guess this is why you need to have a goal. Without one you're just one lost soul...
I can't say I have found my goal. But I will find it somewhere, somehow.... Hopefully I'll get there before I lose my mind. ^^"
Thursday, May 7, 2009
A little announcement
Hey people~
I know I know.... It's been wayyyyyy too long since I last updated.... ^^" Sorry~
I'm just so tired everyday after work I don't feel like doing anything... Sighs... Working life is crappy. ;p
Anywayz, it's past my bedtime so I'll make this post a short one [will try to make it up with a longer one soon...].
I have been posted to Penang for eight months!!! Ahhhhhh~!!!!!!! =( I have very mixed emotions right now. ^^"""
Well.
I'll update next time.
Too tired and I can't think nymore.
Good night~
I know I know.... It's been wayyyyyy too long since I last updated.... ^^" Sorry~
I'm just so tired everyday after work I don't feel like doing anything... Sighs... Working life is crappy. ;p
Anywayz, it's past my bedtime so I'll make this post a short one [will try to make it up with a longer one soon...].
I have been posted to Penang for eight months!!! Ahhhhhh~!!!!!!! =( I have very mixed emotions right now. ^^"""
Well.
I'll update next time.
Too tired and I can't think nymore.
Good night~
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Secondhand Serenade - Call You
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
What's your, what's your...
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have
Am in love with this song right now XD
Friday, January 16, 2009
I'll be by your side...
I came across this song on MTV few months ago and happened to remember about it today. After wiki'ing the singer I found that there were two versions to this song - a boy and girl version.
Both versions have their own flavour and I enjoy them both.
Boy's version - Koko ni iru yo [I'll be right here] - Soulja ft Thelma Aoyama
Girl's version - Soba ni iru ne [I'm by your side] - Thelma Aoyama ft. Soulja
*The videos have translated lyrics at the bottom. So take a look if you're interested~
Live version
Both versions have their own flavour and I enjoy them both.
Boy's version - Koko ni iru yo [I'll be right here] - Soulja ft Thelma Aoyama
Girl's version - Soba ni iru ne [I'm by your side] - Thelma Aoyama ft. Soulja
*The videos have translated lyrics at the bottom. So take a look if you're interested~
Live version
Thursday, January 15, 2009
My new toys....
I know I've been pretty emo lately but my sister who recently returned from the States bought me something to keep me distracted from my emoness XD.
For those who don't read tech news most probably would have never heard about this gadget before.
A super awsome gadget called Chumby~!!!
You're now wondering what this mini TV look-alike thing can do?
It is capable of many things.
The concept of Chumby is to bring your favourite part of internet onto this gadget without having to go online~ Chumby has a built in Wi-Fi thing (don't know what the technical term is....) for you to wake up to up-to-date news, favourite internet radio, or facebook pictures that you and your friends have uploaded. You add the widgets you want and play it on your Chumby~! There are tons of widgets for you to choose from and there are new widgets added all the time. Chumby also has a touch screen so you can play little mini games using the touch screen~
I'm still exploring all the widgets I can add on to my Chumby and I am still amazed... ^^" There are now less reasons for me to turn my computer on... Hehehhe...
But it is too bad this thing can't run on battery. You can't bring it everywhere around the house with you. And it's too bad that some widgets are only useful in the States [widgets such as traffic condition, real time train timetable etc.] and my Chumby can't be used to its full potential. But I'm not going to complain. =D
My sister and my brother-in-law always get me the coolest stuff. Thank you!!!
By the way, I only realised lately that there are many gadgets out there that has built in wi-fi thingy-ma-bobs... I only realised yesterday that a Nintendo Wii has it as well!!! [Oh yea, I'm having fun with the new Wii as well~] I was amazed..... ^^""
And my PSP goes online just fine. Who wants to try Skype with me one day using my PSP? If only Malaysia provides a faster connection... But you can't have everything I guess~ =)
For those who don't read tech news most probably would have never heard about this gadget before.
A super awsome gadget called Chumby~!!!
You're now wondering what this mini TV look-alike thing can do?
It is capable of many things.
The concept of Chumby is to bring your favourite part of internet onto this gadget without having to go online~ Chumby has a built in Wi-Fi thing (don't know what the technical term is....) for you to wake up to up-to-date news, favourite internet radio, or facebook pictures that you and your friends have uploaded. You add the widgets you want and play it on your Chumby~! There are tons of widgets for you to choose from and there are new widgets added all the time. Chumby also has a touch screen so you can play little mini games using the touch screen~
I'm still exploring all the widgets I can add on to my Chumby and I am still amazed... ^^" There are now less reasons for me to turn my computer on... Hehehhe...
But it is too bad this thing can't run on battery. You can't bring it everywhere around the house with you. And it's too bad that some widgets are only useful in the States [widgets such as traffic condition, real time train timetable etc.] and my Chumby can't be used to its full potential. But I'm not going to complain. =D
My sister and my brother-in-law always get me the coolest stuff. Thank you!!!
By the way, I only realised lately that there are many gadgets out there that has built in wi-fi thingy-ma-bobs... I only realised yesterday that a Nintendo Wii has it as well!!! [Oh yea, I'm having fun with the new Wii as well~] I was amazed..... ^^""
And my PSP goes online just fine. Who wants to try Skype with me one day using my PSP? If only Malaysia provides a faster connection... But you can't have everything I guess~ =)
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
人生啊....
当决定了要怎样做，路要怎样走，
就不应该再动摇不定，继续的想太多。
最近才发现到自己很严重的一个缺点。
那就是我太容易就被打败，犹豫不决，
太在意别人的眼光，
说了要做一样东西可是心就是定不下来。
是我不知道自己想要什么吗？
还是想要太多所以什么到最后什么都会得不到？
最近也发现到...
生命有太多事情是不能掌控的.
当这些'outlier'出现的时候,
自己不能乱了脚步.
不可以气馁.
只能坚强点的走下去.
人生不可能事事如意.
Outlier的出现可能是种福气吧...
我一直相信，
任何事情发生一定有它的原因。
所以我必须相信打雷闪电后的雨天会看到漂亮的彩虹。
知道要怎样做了之后就要坚持的走下去。
对未来是不应该感到恐惧而是充满期待的迎接它。
我还在学习着...
就不应该再动摇不定，继续的想太多。
最近才发现到自己很严重的一个缺点。
那就是我太容易就被打败，犹豫不决，
太在意别人的眼光，
说了要做一样东西可是心就是定不下来。
是我不知道自己想要什么吗？
还是想要太多所以什么到最后什么都会得不到？
最近也发现到...
生命有太多事情是不能掌控的.
当这些'outlier'出现的时候,
自己不能乱了脚步.
不可以气馁.
只能坚强点的走下去.
人生不可能事事如意.
Outlier的出现可能是种福气吧...
我一直相信，
任何事情发生一定有它的原因。
所以我必须相信打雷闪电后的雨天会看到漂亮的彩虹。
知道要怎样做了之后就要坚持的走下去。
对未来是不应该感到恐惧而是充满期待的迎接它。
我还在学习着...
Friday, January 9, 2009
-.-"
Once again in my life, a major event that was suppose to happen did not happen.
Why is my life filled with these type of events?
Is it just inevitable that things in life do not go according to how you've planned it?
I know I should look to the bright side of the situation but it is a little hard when you have people around you that reminds you constantly how things have gone off track.
=( Sighs... Another learning experience maybe? These things just get harder and harder doesn't it....
Why is my life filled with these type of events?
Is it just inevitable that things in life do not go according to how you've planned it?
I know I should look to the bright side of the situation but it is a little hard when you have people around you that reminds you constantly how things have gone off track.
=( Sighs... Another learning experience maybe? These things just get harder and harder doesn't it....
Monday, January 5, 2009
走过的路...
记忆是件美好的礼物。
当我怀疑生存的意义的时候，
想起过去的种种，就会知道，不是白活的...
发明相机的那位的很伟大.
如果没有照片的话,应该都想不起发生过那么多事情吧...
呵呵...
我们来回忆一下好吧... XD
2004年 7月 我离开Wellington的前一晚... 记得当晚我哭得很凄惨... 好不容易跟一大班人混熟了又要离开了...
2004年 11月 Lynette的生日... 我, Shin & Lynette当时是形影不离啊... 可是MUFY结束后就只剩我跟Shin了...
2004年 11月 一班人上了云顶. 第一次与朋友这样子去旅行. 可是这次旅行过后我们就没有再一起这样一起hang out了...
2005年 1月 MUFY Games. 被逼去踢soccer. -.-""" 记得好像还输得蛮惨的....
2005年 3月 因为芳要帮朋友拿多点王力宏的亲笔签名的专辑, 我第一次近距离的看到明星. 当晚我忽然间觉得王力宏真的很帅...
2005年 3月 因为moral studies我们去了SPCA做义工. 那天好像我没帮到什么忙... 好像... 只是负责照相... Hahahha... ^^"" [这张照片有点的... kek]
2005年 11月 刚Monash第一个semester的最后一个exam. 考完的那个的感觉真的是...很爽的!!我们的这一个gang才要刚熟起来...
2006年 5月 芳的生日~ 我们F-Gang的第一张全家福~ [这样照片也是有点的...Kek... -.-"]
2006年 7月 我到Melbourne的第一天. 一天没睡再加上哭了很多....
2006年 9月 大姐sponsor我去Sydney玩 =D. 4年过后再见好友... 虽然感觉有点怪, 可是还是很开心.
2006年 11月 去Batu Pahat的探病之旅. 刚从Melbourne回来... 虽然感觉上跟他们有点脱节可是感情不会因为距离而离去的...
2007年 4月 恢复单身后朋友都有点担心我...总觉得节目都安排得满满的.好让我不再那么伤心吧...这一个星期天过的很开心,很幸福. 生活还是要过. 风很温暖,让我的心,慢慢的不再那么痛了...
2007年 4月 第一次clubbing. 还蛮好玩的. 可是太高消费了. XD 负担不起呢...
2007年 11月 当了一天的旅客. 应该是第一也是最后我们一起这样子玩了...
2007年 11月 Langkawi之旅... 毕生难忘的经验 -.-"
2008年 6月 NZ之旅... 第一次跟朋友出国旅行~ 回到长大的地方的感觉是五味杂全的. 舍不得离开却又不得不走...就像长大那样把...
2008年 9月 我毕业了... 感觉... 好怪.... 真的要长大了... 迷惘... 不知道该怎么走...
2008年 10月 在Melbourne的最后一天. 又要走了... 熟悉了一个地方后又要走了. 能有这样的机会体会不一样的地方是福气吧.... 可是一直这样下去也会有累的一天吧...
这几年发生的事情还蛮多的。
开心的，
伤心的，
不舍得的，
难得的，
值得骄傲的，
生气的，
无奈的。
谢谢陪我度过这些情绪的每一个人。
没有你们，我就不会是今天的我。
我会继续加油，寻找自己要的路。=)
祝大家2009年快乐！
一定要创造更多开心地回忆k?!
当我怀疑生存的意义的时候，
想起过去的种种，就会知道，不是白活的...
发明相机的那位的很伟大.
如果没有照片的话,应该都想不起发生过那么多事情吧...
呵呵...
我们来回忆一下好吧... XD
2004年 7月 我离开Wellington的前一晚... 记得当晚我哭得很凄惨... 好不容易跟一大班人混熟了又要离开了...
2004年 11月 Lynette的生日... 我, Shin & Lynette当时是形影不离啊... 可是MUFY结束后就只剩我跟Shin了...
2004年 11月 一班人上了云顶. 第一次与朋友这样子去旅行. 可是这次旅行过后我们就没有再一起这样一起hang out了...
2005年 1月 MUFY Games. 被逼去踢soccer. -.-""" 记得好像还输得蛮惨的....
2005年 3月 因为芳要帮朋友拿多点王力宏的亲笔签名的专辑, 我第一次近距离的看到明星. 当晚我忽然间觉得王力宏真的很帅...
2005年 3月 因为moral studies我们去了SPCA做义工. 那天好像我没帮到什么忙... 好像... 只是负责照相... Hahahha... ^^"" [这张照片有点的... kek]
2005年 11月 刚Monash第一个semester的最后一个exam. 考完的那个的感觉真的是...很爽的!!我们的这一个gang才要刚熟起来...
2006年 5月 芳的生日~ 我们F-Gang的第一张全家福~ [这样照片也是有点的...Kek... -.-"]
2006年 7月 我到Melbourne的第一天. 一天没睡再加上哭了很多....
2006年 9月 大姐sponsor我去Sydney玩 =D. 4年过后再见好友... 虽然感觉有点怪, 可是还是很开心.
2006年 11月 去Batu Pahat的探病之旅. 刚从Melbourne回来... 虽然感觉上跟他们有点脱节可是感情不会因为距离而离去的...
2007年 4月 恢复单身后朋友都有点担心我...总觉得节目都安排得满满的.好让我不再那么伤心吧...这一个星期天过的很开心,很幸福. 生活还是要过. 风很温暖,让我的心,慢慢的不再那么痛了...
2007年 4月 第一次clubbing. 还蛮好玩的. 可是太高消费了. XD 负担不起呢...
2007年 11月 当了一天的旅客. 应该是第一也是最后我们一起这样子玩了...
2007年 11月 Langkawi之旅... 毕生难忘的经验 -.-"
2008年 6月 NZ之旅... 第一次跟朋友出国旅行~ 回到长大的地方的感觉是五味杂全的. 舍不得离开却又不得不走...就像长大那样把...
2008年 9月 我毕业了... 感觉... 好怪.... 真的要长大了... 迷惘... 不知道该怎么走...
2008年 10月 在Melbourne的最后一天. 又要走了... 熟悉了一个地方后又要走了. 能有这样的机会体会不一样的地方是福气吧.... 可是一直这样下去也会有累的一天吧...
这几年发生的事情还蛮多的。
开心的，
伤心的，
不舍得的，
难得的，
值得骄傲的，
生气的，
无奈的。
谢谢陪我度过这些情绪的每一个人。
没有你们，我就不会是今天的我。
我会继续加油，寻找自己要的路。=)
祝大家2009年快乐！
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