"你并不是只属于你自己的
这世上没有任何东西是只属于自己的
每个人总是会和他人相关，
共有着某些东西 所以，
无法自由随意 但也正因为如此 生活才有趣，
才悲伤，才如此惹人爱怜" - xxxHolic

A few years ago, I read that from a comic book.
At that time, I didn't think too much of it.
But now, when I read it again, it gives it a whole different meaning.
You would think if it's yours, it wouldn't affect others.
You should be able to freely do what ever that is supposedly yours.
But in fact, that's just some kind of illusion you've been living in.
Every thing is connected someway or another.
You will never be totally free of doing what you want to do.
But true, as the phrase also rightly points out.
Life is interesting, sad, lovable because of this.
That is also how we are connected to each other.
And we will never be totally alone...

Once again...

Once again, I've forgotten about you, my poor blog. ^^""""
If not because the group mentioned about blogs tonight I would have forgotten about your existence for even longer... XD
I'm sorry (it now seems like an annual event that I apologise to you now...)!!!

It's been a year since I last updated you.
It seems every time I update you some kindda dramatic event has happened to me.
Sighs. I seem to be caught up in some kindda drama one way or the other very often.
I used to think it's not that bad to have some drama in life...
But I think I need to retract that thought.
It gets a little tiring...

There was a major change in my life recently.
A change that I didn't think would happen if you had asked me four years ago.
A change I didn't think I would be capable of handling.
A change that will always tug my heart slightly when I think about it.

But the change had to come.
The change had to happen.
Because the problem wasn't viewed as an issue when it was first raised.
It wasn't perceived as a serious thing till it went down the place of no return...
When we finally realised, it was already too late.

Though there is a part of me who would very much like to undo this change.
It does not appear to be viable at this point in time.
But hey, I have other things to be grateful about.
We may not be together as previously planned, we are at least together in another form.
And I believe this is something that can't be changed easily.
With that, I can at least have some kind of comfort that not all is lost.

这个世界上没有偶然，有的只是必然。
I still very much believe in that.
If this had to happen, there must be a reason.
Because it is not by coincidence. It had to happen.
For what reason? No clue right now.
But the only way to find out is to move forward.
Will I like what I find out? I sure very much hope so...
I will try my best to meet it with a smile...

Life is indeed interesting isn't it?
Nothing ever works out as planned.
I may get to somewhere I am supposed to go.
But the journey there will never be as expected or planned.
Guess all I can do is just enjoy the ride as best as I can.