好久不见

真的好久好久没上来这里了...
差点就忘了我有一个这样的地方...
也已经好久没上网看朋友们的部落格了.
好像每个人也渐渐的为了生活把注意力转移到其他地方了.

最后一次写的文章竟然是今年一月.
那时候写的事情到现在还在困扰着我.
还以为会变得比较勇敢.
可是 我还是我. 好像还反而更加严重了...

很多时候也会脾气不好.
不想跟人接触交谈 也睡不好...
好像也会自己跟自己交谈吵架.
我真的不能再这样下去了...

一天一天的过.
总有一天会发现'已经太迟了'.
不行!
不能够.
一定要找出解决的方法.
不能再拖了...

现实是残酷的

又再一次的生病了。
我到底是怎么了。。。
以前是几年才发一次烧。
今年却平均一个月烧一次。
搞到我的manager觉得我是那种随便乱那MC的人。。。=(
我也不想拿MC的啊。。。
回到家也没有事情做。
怪凄惨的 ><"

真想回到以前读书时，不想去上课就不去上。
不用看人家的脸色。
现在做什么都要想其他人会怎样看你。
长大的代价可真大。。。
慢慢地看见什么叫办公室风云。
什么叫看人家脸色做人。
什么叫低声下气。

接下来的人生就是会绕着这些东西走。
很多时候都会想
"is this really it?"
现在才真的学会珍惜那些宝贵的时间。
因为快乐的时间过得真的是特别快。

人生啊。。。

Ever since I started working I've been wondering where this is all going.
There are many days I wake up feeling lost.
Things don't make sense to me. The world, people, everything.
It's as if I was living in a dream back in those Uni days and I'm waking up to the reality.

There are so much more think about now.
The work that you do, the constant pressure put on you to perform, the responsibilities. Not just the work that you do.
The people around you as well. Family, friends, relationships, everyone around you.
There is never enough balance between all these different groups of people.
Everyone expects something out of you and when you can't exceed their expectations they get frustrated and annoyed at you. Things falls apart after that. You try to think of the best way to do things but somehow, someway, something goes wrong.

This is the reality huh. But is this really the way that life is suppose to be?
A lot of people tells me I'm thinking too much. Maybe I am... But I can't help it.
I guess this is why you need to have a goal. Without one you're just one lost soul...
I can't say I have found my goal. But I will find it somewhere, somehow.... Hopefully I'll get there before I lose my mind. ^^"

-.-"

Once again in my life, a major event that was suppose to happen did not happen.
Why is my life filled with these type of events?
Is it just inevitable that things in life do not go according to how you've planned it?
I know I should look to the bright side of the situation but it is a little hard when you have people around you that reminds you constantly how things have gone off track.
=( Sighs... Another learning experience maybe? These things just get harder and harder doesn't it....

Emo emo

Gahhhhh.

Holidays coming to an end. I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL..... =(

Sigh...

Back to reality.

Back to assignments.

Back to studying...

How am I gonna survive my working life in the future?

Sigh...

I'm starting to think holidays are kindda bad for you... [in a strange way...]

I need to stop slacking... Grrrrr....

Should really get on to that tutorial that I've been saying that I wanna do....

Sigh...

The heat is killing me softly....

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!
It's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hot!!!!!!!
I really think I'm about to die from this heat...
Feels like I'm being baked in the oven ><



Look at that!! 36.7 degrees. Without any air conditioning, car, things to keep me cool, ughhh! Dammit it's supposed to be Autumn by now. Grrrrrrrrr.
Looking at the forecast I don't think I'll complain about being cold any time soon...

Okok...
I've been pampered almost my whole life....
Sigh....

I'm now missing the house back in Armadale...

stupid exams ><

who the hell invented exams??????????????

ughhhhhhhhh.

it must be some type of evil plan someone made up. so that people like me suffer ><

i haven't been able to sleep well at all lately. there's no morning that i wake up thinking "hey, i feel good today".

everyday when i wake up i'll think "gahhhhhhhhhhh. need to study. and im tired... =("

i didn't really study today.. dammit. i don't see how i can fail this unit but.. my HD went down the drain... o wellz... that's what you get for slacking and making up excuses for not studying.

sigh.......

can't wait to go home!!!

blek

我不要读书了啦！！！
最近每天都读到太阳升起的时候才可以睡。
不是我想读到那么‘早’
是我没什么选择 (mr kong rrrr.. thanks to you laaa.. ;p)

太阳刚要升起的时候，天空是很漂亮的^^

这些是前天拍的。。



这些是今天早上拍的。。。





after taking a pictures i realised my camera can do some pretty cool stuff. (most cameras can probly do the same thing but thats not the point here...)





still need a lof a practice with my camera.... but ill get there some day.......

yess... this was quite a meanigless blog ;p
but im annoyed at my books and notes and formulas ><

good luck peeps~!!

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grrrrrrr.

i'm getting annoyed.

i'm getting restless.

arghhhhhhhhhh.

exams are getting on my nerves dammit.

can it like happen tomorrow???

it annoys me to know that by the time i have my first exam most people would have already fihished THREE exams.

blek...

dammit stats. u always give me a lot of trouble but yet i do not know why i keep choosing you ;p